1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:00,000 2 00:00:04,810 --> 00:00:07,032 I've been on Parris Island for about 15 3 00:00:07,032 --> 00:00:10,370 months . I got injured later on in the 4 00:00:10,370 --> 00:00:13,400 training process . One day after a PT 5 00:00:13,400 --> 00:00:16,180 event , I dismounted a pullup bar and 6 00:00:16,180 --> 00:00:18,670 something didn't feel right . We went 7 00:00:18,670 --> 00:00:22,260 on the table to on the rifle range and 8 00:00:22,400 --> 00:00:24,456 during a rapid fire . Something just 9 00:00:24,456 --> 00:00:26,289 didn't feel right in my shoulder 10 00:00:26,289 --> 00:00:28,511 because of the recoil of a rifle . So I 11 00:00:28,511 --> 00:00:28,480 mentioned it to my drill instructor . 12 00:00:29,640 --> 00:00:32,620 We then went to medical . I found out I 13 00:00:32,630 --> 00:00:36,630 have to get anymore right . I told 14 00:00:36,630 --> 00:00:38,730 my labor , fractured my humorous and 15 00:00:38,740 --> 00:00:42,440 had a wing scapular . Basically , my 16 00:00:42,440 --> 00:00:45,030 shoulder blade was out of place . Well , 17 00:00:45,030 --> 00:00:48,150 is the shoulder inside ? So when I 18 00:00:48,150 --> 00:00:50,261 initially got dropped , my family was 19 00:00:50,261 --> 00:00:54,180 devastated . I did have a period 20 00:00:54,180 --> 00:00:56,458 of time where I wanted to just go home . 21 00:01:01,560 --> 00:01:03,560 My biggest motivation for not going 22 00:01:03,560 --> 00:01:06,060 home was when I was in STC and saw 23 00:01:06,420 --> 00:01:08,642 other recruits who had been here for an 24 00:01:08,642 --> 00:01:10,864 extensive period of time . They had not 25 00:01:10,864 --> 00:01:12,753 lost motivation . I couldn't look 26 00:01:12,753 --> 00:01:15,940 myself as an outstanding 27 00:01:15,940 --> 00:01:19,170 citizen or much less an outstanding 28 00:01:19,180 --> 00:01:21,291 service member if I decided just give 29 00:01:21,291 --> 00:01:25,290 up and my mom 30 00:01:25,290 --> 00:01:28,200 really push me to go back into , she 31 00:01:28,200 --> 00:01:30,200 said . After all the time I've been 32 00:01:30,200 --> 00:01:32,256 here , it seems pointless to kind of 33 00:01:32,256 --> 00:01:32,050 walk away in . 34 00:01:37,960 --> 00:01:39,950 It's just incredibly rewarding me 35 00:01:41,740 --> 00:01:44,010 because I was so long . I just wanted 36 00:01:44,010 --> 00:01:48,000 to give up . I just I couldn't let 37 00:01:48,000 --> 00:01:50,222 myself be that person . I couldn't look 38 00:01:50,222 --> 00:01:52,222 myself in the mirror and be OK with 39 00:01:52,222 --> 00:01:54,278 myself if I just said , Just give up 40 00:01:54,278 --> 00:01:57,650 and go Just 41 00:01:58,240 --> 00:02:01,800 just just the thought of completing The 42 00:02:01,810 --> 00:02:05,010 Crucible and finally earning the Eagle 43 00:02:05,010 --> 00:02:08,030 Globe and anchor is it ? It's entirely 44 00:02:08,030 --> 00:02:11,970 surreal . I just think back to 45 00:02:11,970 --> 00:02:15,950 a year ago , when I was so on island , 46 00:02:17,490 --> 00:02:21,270 kind of sulking in my own self pity , 47 00:02:21,490 --> 00:02:24,350 and at a left island , I wouldn't 48 00:02:24,350 --> 00:02:26,517 served my original purpose , which was 49 00:02:26,517 --> 00:02:26,590 coming here .